Thursday, April 30

when money you're needing and mouths you are feeding



hey spencer and heidi! since you're so famous for no reason, and therefore wealthy for no reason, how about NOT exploiting this possible pandemic for your own publicity purposes and buying some medicine for some people in mexico?
have you ever felt totally betrayed by your culture? if anyone foreign is secretly reading this, let me assure you, I DO NOT UPHOLD THESE VALUES AND TRADITIONS (as pictured above.) I REPEAT. I DO NOT. UPHOLD. THESE VALUES AND TRADITIONS.

Saturday, April 25

A TOAST TO THE GOOD

A LIST OF THINGS I LOVE (RIGHT NOW)

1. MASH UPS- from girl talk to metermaids to jaydiohead to the gray album to this grizzly bear/dead prez thing i'm listening to- i love it all! i'm really glad i've been around to see this cool new sub-genre art form be created and evolve. sometimes the mashup is more beautiful/make you wanna shake yr booty than either of the songs desperately.

2. MASHED POTATOES

3. REALLY DEEP VOICES- I realized how fucking awesome these were during the Peter Bjorn and John concert the other night. Their bassist was singing along with the bass notes he was playing and I was like "damn. that is one deep voice." from james earl jones to the bassist of peter bjorn and john (who is either named peter, bjorn or john)- DEEP VOICES- I LOVE 'EM ALL!

4. PUNK GANGS- too fucking trivial not to love.

5. MANATEES- http://rickoshea.files.wordpress.com/2008/03/manatee.jpg I WANT TO UNDERWATER CUDDLE WITH THOSE FUCKING SEA COWS

6. DALE GRIBBLE, AS WELL AS THE REST OF COMMUNITY OF ARLEN, TX

Tuesday, April 21

the billdozer

Life Story

by Tennessee Williams

After you've been to bed together for the first time,
without the advantage or disadvantage of any prior acquaintance,
the other party very often says to you,
Tell me about yourself, I want to know all about you,
what's your story? And you think maybe they really and truly do

sincerely want to know your life story, and so you light up
a cigarette and begin to tell it to them, the two of you
lying together in completely relaxed positions
like a pair of rag dolls a bored child dropped on a bed.

You tell them your story, or as much of your story
as time or a fair degree of prudence allows, and they say,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
each time a little more faintly, until the oh
is just an audible breath, and then of course

there's some interruption. Slow room service comes up
with a bowl of melting ice cubes, or one of you rises to pee
and gaze at himself with mild astonishment in the bathroom mirror.
And then, the first thing you know, before you've had time
to pick up where you left off with your enthralling life story,
they're telling you their life story, exactly as they'd intended to all
along,

and you're saying, Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
each time a little more faintly, the vowel at last becoming
no more than an audible sigh,
as the elevator, halfway down the corridor and a turn to the left,
draws one last, long, deep breath of exhaustion
and stops breathing forever. Then?

Well, one of you falls asleep
and the other one does likewise with a lighted cigarette in his mouth,
and that's how people burn to death in hotel rooms.

Tuesday, April 7

HALO HALO HALO

i have cried so much since october that i could probably fill up a sizable bucket with my sweet, salty eye liquid. is it normal to be talking to your boyfriend on aim in a lighthearted manner one minute and then hugging your knees and weeping the next? what? who THE FUCK am i these days?

last night we watched a movie about a dinosaur named big al in my earth science class. motherfucker was a cute fucking baby dino, damn it.
note: stop swearing like a sailor, kori. it makes you sound uneducated and crass.

THROW UP IN YOUR HANDS AND SCREAM

the more downhill things go, the more i consider doing acid.

DOESN'T IT MAKE YOU WANT TO
THROW
UP
IN
YOUR
HANDS
AND
SCREAM
?
??
!!!??
?!!

Wednesday, April 1

chicken little, falling from the sky

things are looking down. and i don't mean like an aerial view.

last night:
i should have written this when it was fresh, but i can tell you the dream was centered around ensemble113. i was walking towards niles north, to rehearsal during the summer, and basically every bird in the world was dying or dead. they were just falling from the sky. and to walk across the parking lot from the mall to the school...the whole parking lot was just covered in these bright purple dead birds with bright mustard yellow beaks. i mean covered with dead birds. when i got to the building this guys sister who is going to be our director for this children's show this summer was really angry at me (us? i think i was with someone) for being late and i had to explain about all the dead birds, but she didn't really care. there was talk of frilly costumes.
there was some section of the dream where i was in a car, driving at night, past a house with a lot of windows on a hill.


canyon walls are crumbling and collapsing around me. at least that's how it feels.