DREAMZDREAMSDREAMING

MORE WEIRDNESS IN MY SUBCONCIOUS LAST NIGHT

i was on some college campus somewhere with an old friend and a friend that i knew through her. and this girl holli was there. we went to this club and i was wearing a button down shirt, but it was unbuttoned and i wasn't wearing a bra so my tits were just out and all over the damn place. it was dark and the music was loud and things were really round, like the shape of the room was a circle.
the next part i remember was being in some kind of walgreens/cvs store on the way back from that club- i buttoned up my shirt and was really embarrassed that i had been wearing it like that. my friend said i had been bitching about not having lotion all night so we were in the walgreens so i could buy some. i picked up a magazine in the walgreens and i picked up a magazine that was kind of like this month's vanity fair (with seth rogan and all of them) but it had all these people from sex and the city and other shows and before i know it i look in the mirror and i'm charlotte from sex and the city and it's my wedding day. and i have these weird dreadlocks.
so i get my hair fixed because it's my wedding day and i keep switching off between being carrie and being charlotte and and i'm in my house (my real life house) and it's mid afternoon (i can tell from the light) and then i walk into my parent's house and carrie (i'm charlotte at this point) is sleeping with my fiance on the morning of my wedding. i suddenly have a pair of scissors in my hand so i STAB HER IN THE EYE. but like, the scissors go into the side of her eye, near her nose, the part that gets red and gunky and full of eye boogers and stuff...and her eye was just falling out of her head and all bloody and full of guts and shit. REALLY graphic stuff. but then she was fine and was telling me to get dressed and escape because the police were coming because i just stabbed someone in the eye with a pair of scissors on my wedding day. so i'm putting on this pink and black striped shirt and green leggins and running out of my house, and i get into my moms's car in the passenger seat, and carrie gets in the drivers seat, and there's this totally adorable little black toddler there, hugging me. he kind of looked like my ex's little brother, but he wasn't. and i figure out that he's my son, and he'll love me forever, and he's smiling and laughing and we're driving away and it's like 6:30 pm in early september and the sun is in that pre-sunset phase and everything is orangey-yellow and we're driving down main street towards the lake and then i woke up.

"you can fight the fire that's in your head"
really dodos?? i don't think so.